listen to my scream and rant about things i dont like or just things i like (its more complaining)
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5/22/2026
i keep having the most deppersing dreams ever what is going on i keep getting like theese sad yet silly dreams and i been more likely to cry at random things am i ok tf is going on oh also i been obbessing with leafy now, i still love four im just a big leafy fan now. i really want to dream every night when im in the world of bfdi, just hanging out with everyone. and it starts off wherever it left off! why cant i dream like that? does it always have to be sad and emo? Maybe im going deppersed?? i dont know?? i keep crying in my dreams too. its really weird. I should maybe tell my family about this... its also been weirdly around my dad too, i think its because he got surgery on his heart and i have not seen him in months and i been missing him but im really worried he might die because of this surgery he got. idk. my mind is really all over the place. also i somehow got art block because i have not been drawing lately...
5/6/2026
im tired, theater lately hasn't been going well for me. After school been requried this week but the problem is we have to stay till 8pm. my mom isn't letting me go, but she's sayying she can come and pick me up on firday the day before my play. But, good news is that i have been learning javascript and c# more often. school's coming to a end, so. benfits. no dreams lately... although i have been wondering what is likes to 'shift.' (basically lucid dreaming but you want to, i think. and its into a new world! i think one of my ex-friends were a shifter, but it ended badly... uh...) this is because i kinda want to go to shift to bfdi.,.... but only when im dreaming!! so that way i won't look crazy if i ever do it awake if thats even possible idk im still new to the whole idea
4/28/2026
i think i have a crush
4/23/2026
i forgot my blog exitsed... oops... uh... anyways. i kinda forgot what i wsnted to write sooo whatever
4/16/2026
i lost my laptop :( idk where it went... right now im writing this via pc i dont relize how much things look so goofy on a bigger screen. oh well, im not gonna bother trying to fix it....
4/8/2026
i needed to write about this, but last nights dream i had was weird and like, really sad. I dont remeber how it started, im pretty sure i made a wish in the dream to start my life over from kindergarten. and starting from kindergarten (more first grade but), my school lay outs was built like my pre-school's, i had my childhood friends there (and some of my current friends for some reason) and we were talking, and they were bringing to places and everytime i couldn't help but just feel sad, because for some reason i still remebered everything. im pretty sure i mentioned to one of the kids there about it-for some reason they responded that they believed me. idk. it feels weird to think about it, but i kinda like it. which i am currently rewriting my oc's lore... maybe i can spin this dream to something like this. or make new oc's! (i'll still keep my current ones :P )
4/7/2026
YAY!!! i got my blog in full speed >:3 it took less time than making exit, but im proud of it!!!
also... uh... i commented to much on my neocities profile so i can respond to comments for a while... hulp... also idk why but the align thing wasn't working even tho i was doing it correctly soooo bruh
